My dh and I have been having issues for over a year. I know that Im self righteous but I find him extremely ungrateful, he also has major mood swings, bordering on depression (someone at work actually told him they thought he should go see a counsellor as they thought he had it too). On Monday he got made redundant. He wont let me comfort him or discuss anything what so ever. I know his pride is bruised but I thought we were a team and that we worked together. But being with him is ruddy hard work and I would say that I am less and less happy (although Im not at the point where I want to leave). But I have 2 beautiful boys who I love and so my focus is them, which means that although Dh is home now, I still run late for work because my slacker dh does the bare minimum in regards to the kids so I have to pick up the slack.
So on top of that..
1) I dislike my MIL and she, FIL and BIL do the best they can to drive a wedge between me and DH. And most of the time they succeed.
1) My dad has been battling cancer for about 3 years. Tomorrow he has his 3rd operation to cut more cancer out of his liver.
2) I found a lump on my brest about a week ago. I had a mammo & ultrasound. The sonographer told me there was no need for a biopsy (which I thought was a good thing at the time). However there were some little ‘bits’ on my other brest which they wanted to take pics of. Then this morning I got a call from my gp’s secretary asking ‘whether I was going to go to see a specialist’…Well now im freaked out over this as well.
I always considered myself a tough cookie but im just burnt out. My mum is the only one who helps me out and offers advice. She listens, tells me to calm down but also feels very sad for me.
On top of that, there is no work for DH in NSW (his industry is just dead in this state) and so the only offers for work he is getting are from Perth. We have noone there. Its not FIFO work, its work in perth and then possibly travel to site on an adhoc basis. I will always support him in his career, but with things the way they are between us, with my dad and to a lesser extent my DS1 (has just started preschool and loooooooooooooooves it, so Id be really to have to take him out of that particular school), I don’t want to go.
Do I have a right to feel overwhelmed, and a bit sorry for myself?