I feel so selfish for feeling this way when so many of you would give anything to be pregnant. I am 5 weeks and absolutely miserable. I dont want this baby, I don't want the kids I have now, I don't want to marry my partner...in fact I think I hate him, he makes me miserable. I can NEVER make him happy and God knows ive tried. I cant even afford an abortion right now. I never thought id have one of could live with doing it, but I truly feel ill be worse having this baby. This is the LAST way I expected to feel. This pregnancy is nothing like my others. I dont know what to do...I am absolutely falling apart and devestated, cant stop crying.