Hi earthlyangelic I'm sorry your having to make this decision it's never one many people really want to be in
I found my decision to have a termination relatively easy to make in my head, I think knowing what it is like to have children made it easier for me, before children I did not think I would ever have a termination..as you said knowing what it is like to have children adds another element to it.
I have found it difficult recently as I would of been due last month but I look around myself and I know I could not handle another baby right now. When I found out I thought about how much things could change in 9 months but I could not gamble on those things changing (and they haven't) I am glad I made the choice I did.
I try to think of it this way, I had the choice to become a mother (again) I didn't think I should have to become one by default, I wanted to choose it not have it choose me, motherhood by choice is my motto