hi all im just wondering if anyone has had a horrible experience with their docs/hospitals?this is my 1st pregnancy.I was 12wks pg when i went in to ed on 31/1 with pain and spotting.they took blood, my hcg levels were 35000.they scanned me on a machine they said was the rubbish scanner.after 45 min they couldnt even find my uterus the machine was that crap.they gave me a internal my cervix was closed and they sent me home not offering a proper scan.a week later i went back with worse pain and spotting.the doc "tried" to take blood but couldnt get the needle in correctly so i cracked it and left.
on sat 9/2 i woke up and my stomach and boobs had deflated and the bleeding was heavier.i went back to ed as i was convinced then something was severly wrong. they took my blood and my hcg was 17200.they doc said your going to miscarry .i asked the doc what my next steps were he said go home and walked out of the room.in our state of shock thats exactly what we did.
that day around 2pm i started passing large clots and the pain was getting pretty bad.this continued through till sunday untill around 1130am.the pain was coming and going but getting worse each time it came back.at 1230 hubby started timing it.each time the pain getting closer and closer together.i realised i was having contractions.around 145pm i started having the urge to push and the pain was too much to handle so i decided to go back to ed.before i made it out the door i started spewing and thought i was going to pass out.as i had spewed i felt something come out from down below.at 205pm i passed a fully intact sac with my baby inside measuring around 2cm.this was a gut wrenching sight but i had to look!everytime i think of how big he was i try and pinpoint when it was he had died.why didnt i know it earlier you know a "womens" sense.i feel im being punished.its unfair to go through that with no reward of my baby to hold.and why didnt the doctors help me more or tell me what to expect given how far along i was insted of just walking out of the room.no option for anything!
we decided to bury our bubba in a pot with seedlings of beautiful flowers to sprout.we bring the pot inside at night and put it in our room.bit weird i know but its how we cope this is sh!t!!!!