Thanks ladies. My main issue is that I feel like he is just saying "next year, next year" to put off talking about it. What if he keeps doing this forever.
He has said he doesn't really want kids but will have one with me. Hasn't said an exact time when.
He says he wants to see how he feels about it in a years time.
If push comes to shove and he really is never going to commit to it, I would unfortunately leave him. Being a parent is the most important thing for me.
In terms of marriage, again... All on him. He knows I want him to propose but keeps telling me to wait and not hold my breath as he isn't ready to be engaged, not that I see it being any different to our current situation.
We've lived together for 4 years.
I feel like he just wants to be in a defecto relationship with no kids forever.
Like I said, if this I the case.. In a few years I will seek an alternate method of having kids alone I guess.
I suppose I can do nothing but wait until next year and bring it up again.
I know he is the kind of man that would never really be excited and accept pregnancy until it sinks in and he can physically see and feel something.
He is great with my 5 month old niece and would be a great father. He just doesn't want his life to change right now and I worry that he is just scared and immature.
Makes me wish I just got 'knocked up' by accident years ago lol.
I hate the pressure it's causing.
I have been so sick from stress, I just had a month off work cause I had shingles.