I had never seen this thread before now De!
god I wish you lived here, or I lived there.. I have been where you are (and how you seem to be feeling) so much! I am really down on myself right now too.. put on a heap of weight - we have so much in common
bugger everyone else.. when I come to Perth I'm paying for a sitter for all our kids (with your approval of course) and we are going to doll ourselves up like the spunkrats we are (well, I am on the inside anyway! ) and go out for a good old fashioned girls night and go nuts!
I always thought there was a skinny beautiful person inside me wanting to get out.. but she never showed up . Possibly just as well, 'cos if I was, I'd be walking around in a bikini 24/7 and be totally up myself!