We have had councilling in the past, but for my issues, which I didn't commit to in councilling but have worked on myself over the years. I didn't put in what I needed to in councilling. These latest issues have just ccome up on the last few days. I have mediation booked for april(earliest I could get in), but not councilling. I'm not sure I want to keep trying. I am not attracted to him(physically or emotionally), I do not love him, I do not trust him and I'm not even sure if I respect him any more.