I think now, more than ever, I need to talk to someone (God help them )
Hugs to you OP the best thing about BH can be that even when you think you are the only one suffering with certain issues/situations, you are never alone in it
There is nowhere near enough thread-space on the hub for me to air my grievances about my husband
Not really, I often get the "what do you have to be depressed about" speech. I tend to just bottle it all up and just tell my psychologist who is lovely. He does care, but has just grown up with a super normal happy family who has never been exposed to that kind of thing.
Nope DH doesn't get it at all. When I was having a meltdown after 10 months of suffering PPD in embarrassed silence I had a breakdown and confessed I felt suicidal and depressed. He said nothing, didn't hug or touch me, after a few minutes of silence he got up and went to the kitchen, then avoided and ignored me the rest of the day and the next.
Thanks everyone. I don't know how to reply to everyone. Hugs massively to those also suffering.
I do have a journal but it's empty. I need to do more to help myself.
It's been a massive few months. With dd2s ops and other personal stuff, now I've got shingles and my business was flooded in the recent floods and I haven't been able to open again. Whinge whinge.
I don't think anybody who isn't living with it can understand it as wholly as someone who is.
My ex just thought I was "a bit annoyed" or "having an episode" (the latter when I had called an ambulance after very nearly committing suicide). He was more annoyed that he had to look after DD.
Current DP, he is amazing. He listens to absolutely everything and tries to understand as much as he can. It's hard, I think, for other people to "get it". Something so trivial can set us off, and it seems like we're just "tantrumming" if we get upset about.
Glad your current partner is great lucymoo x
My Dh is just over me screwing everyhing up all the time. But like I said, I'm way more over it.
Please try writing in your journal. Even if it doesnt make sense. It doesnt have to make sense as long as it helps. I didnt know how to start and was trying to think of what I should write first. Some kind of introduction? A bit of background? No...its a journal for me to just write things in. Nobody has to read it or understand it. Just try start writing and the feelings pour out. It hurts to see the words and to feel the emotions come out but it helps...well it helps me and I hope it can help you too
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