I haven't put this in the armed forces section (though I had a quick look there) because well it isn't really so much about the army, more going away in general.
DH mentioned to me last night that he is thinking about joining the army or the army reserve. He has a good job now but they go through periods of not much work to do and this week has been one of those. The thing is I don't want him to do it. None of it. For work now he does one night away most months and there is no way I could handle him going away for long periods for whatever they do in the army - or if there is a way I just don't want to handle it. Its not the type of life I want now or in the future when we have children. I am in tears just writing this and all he's done is look at the website.
I feel pathetic but I dont want him to go. Am I being awful and selfish and holding him back from what he wants to do by saying no when he asks 'so what do you think'?