I lost my first bub at almost 17 weeks on 27th September 2012... My due date is approaching 3rd March 2013.
In the last week we've had a friend announce her unplanned pregnancy.
My partner's younger brother has announced his ex (we think they are back on now) is 5 weeks pregnant. They've known each other approximately 6 weeks. And another friend's almost 2 year old baby has suffered severe abuse at his mother's hands.
My baby was wanted. Planned. I had bought almost everything. It had taken me a while to conceive as well.
Tonight I am sitting here absolutely 100% cursing 'god' - the cruel *******, whoever he/she/it is.
I am jealous, angry, upset, numb, can't think, want to throw things.
Normally I am a very rational, easy going person... I just can't take this heartache anymore. It's beyond unfair!
My partner wants me to accept his brother's baby. As he put it, 'the child has done nothing wrong'. All I want to do is slap his brother and tell him he's a drop kick loser who doesn't deserve this child. I am so incredibly angry about it! He is the third father to a fourth child. Him and the missus are both druggies and complete losers.
Sorry, any advice on how I can just 'let it go' or calm down or anything. I don't even know