I haven't read the rest of the thread. But I just wanted to say really DON'T judge "success" by an audi and a suit. Who's to say what makes a life well-lived or not. Who knows, he maybe was thinking "Gee she's married with beautiful kids, I feel like I've missed all that", he could be sick, he could be involved in a bitter divorce, he could be depressed OR he could be blissfully happy with what he's achieved, who really cares. The stuff you are seeing is so shallow. Don't judge him or yourself on it.