Hoping someone else has these semi morbid thoughts.
With DS it took just over a year to conceive him. I ovulate fine, DH's sperm was fine. we bd'd when we were meant to, ate right, took the vitamins, kept fit all of that.. We just took time falling pregnant.
Now I am 35 soon to be 36, less sleep (due to ds), less fit and a bit overweight.
Whilst in the first month i got kinda excited, the next two cycles I have been a bit blah, more concerned about ovulating than falling pregnant. Then it hit me this morning "I am not sure I think I will get pregnant again". Is this why I am not so surprised when I look at my BFns? Is this why I have lost interest in my ttc diary as well? To be honest I don't even feel hopeful. I don't feel sad or desperate about it (okay maybe a little wistful but not depressed) just don't think it is going to happen.
Hoping it is just a coping mechanism and not some kind of prophetic emotion. Anyone else go through this?