I think I am making myself crazy and we aren't TTC just yet. We are just waiting on the last of the blood tests and I will be having day surgery next week.
There is no doubt we want children and are ready but now the time is here I am finding my mind is runny away and questioning everything. From what if we are lucky and conceive fairly quickly is it the right time and will we be ready to what if there are problems and we have difficulty conceiving. Lets just say sleep is a little difficult of late with my mind continually inventing new scenarios.
I always knew I wanted children but until now it has never consumed me and it is freaking me out a little. I find myself looking at baby things and then feel guilty as we aren't quite there, I am a practical person and know I won't buy anything until we are pregnant.
When I talk about these things with DH he looks at me like I am a different person and tries and reassure me that we need to just relax and see what happens for a few months and go from there.