I really struggle with this. We've been trying for a while and it's only gotten harder. Today I looked at a lady at work (she's 19 weeks) and thought to myself 'I hate you' which is totally unlike me!! She's just outgrown her uniform and her belly is so perfect and cute in her maternity top. Jealousy can turn you into a crazy woman. This particular lady was the first to announce her pregnancy after my miscarriage so it bites. There is always 3 ladies at work expecting, when one leaves, another announces.
I stopped counting everyone's births/pregnancies last year when it got over 50 I've been lapped by several of my colleagues.
Its even harder to lie when I get asked about it, I just say its not for me, and put up with the criticism. When inside my heart is breaking. Everyone always asks as dh and I have been together almost 14 years and married for close to 5 now. I had a close friend at work tell me the other day she was scared to tell me she was pregnant and I felt awful.