So I was seeing a guy for a couple of months but we've decided to call it a day. I think it's for the best as he had only just ended his marriage before we started our relationship and clearly wasn't ready. I feel like I'm finally ready after two years to see someone.
He was the loveliest guy and is gutted that it has to be this way as we both care for each other and are intensely attracted to each other but he knows he has to sort himself out first.
I'm surprising myself with how much this is affecting me. A few months ago even the thought of being with someone made me shudder. This was a very quick, deep romance and he really swept me off my feet and had me rethinking all of my feelings and decisions about being single. Now I am struggling to completely cut ties with him. We've still hooked up a few times since parting ways and have been texting each other almost daily. It's easy to be like that because it still feels like we are together even though we aren't.
Last night I texted him to let him know that I didn't have it in me to do this. I understand he needs time to heal but I can't be the person waiting in the background hopeful that we'll end up together.
He often tells me he misses me and the thought of me being with someone else saddens him - but I think it's hurting me in the long run by being with him but not 'with him'.
Sorry I know this is a pointless post. I just feel so disappointed that I've managed to go from feeling on top of the world, happy within my singledom and just enjoying life .... To going through a very fast emotional journey and now I'm licking my wounds over something that was so short lived. I feel quite ashamed actually and more than anything really naive and silly.