Hi my name is Susana, and I am 39 years old.
A little a bit me:
I have been married since December 2012. First marriage. Took me a long time to find the right man that I wanted to spend the right of my life with. Had real bad luck in the crappy men department! Hubby and I started TTC 3 months before we got married. In January of 2012 we fell pregnant! I have never been pregnant for me, so I was unbelievably OVERJOYED!! However early February 2012, we miscarried. To be honest, I have really in the past couple of months have really grieved and been really emotional. We have bee TTC since February, with no sucess whatsoever. Saw a naturopath a few months ago, who said I had to change my diet as it seemed I was too acidic, and needed to be balanced into alkaline. So I changed my eating habits for the better. saw two Fertility Specialists. One in April 2012, which I did a blood test, which showed everything was good with me except that my AMH (anti-mulerian, low ovarian reserve) level was 7, which normal is 14. However at my age that is still good. She didn't want to see me again until September/October, and believed I would fall pregnant within that time. Obviously I didn't.
I went to see another FS # 2 (fertility specialist), who at first seemed great then was so plain rude when he asked why I was here to see him, when I said why (like der?!), he said "well, you're old to have children." I was gobsmaked and shocked at this. Yes I know I'm old, however women are still giving birth at my age and older, and even first time mothers!! jerk!! He did an external ultrasound on my pelvic region, which he said "I have a very beautiful uterus. Very very beautiful". He sent me off for a HSG, a flushing/examination of my fallopian tubes.
I was booked in and man, was that painful!!! Results: my left tube is blocked, unknown as to why, but right tube is normal and ok. Hubby had his fellas checked and he has perfect super sperm. FS # 2 didn't want to see me again til March/April of this year. I decided, to look for another FS as I was so let down and disappointed by past two FS's that i wanted someone that is going to hear me, support me and assist me.
Lucky FS # 3, I saw in December 2012, and he apologised for last two FS's especially as he had trained them both and decided immediate action and putting me straight to IVF. I broke down crying feeling useless and a lost cause, as I am the one who is struggling to help us have our baby. Hubby and I did our blood tests right then. I am scheduled for an internal ultrasound of my ovaries and eggs, and I am nervous as hell, as you can imagine.
I also started seeing in November a chinese doctor, which I get acupuncture done every Tuesday and take chinese herbal medicine.
I have been more emotional, especially so when close friends announced a day before their wedding two weeks ago that they are 9 weeks pregnant. I am so happy for them but obviously it broke my heart wishing it was me. So I went on a drinking binge that night with my moscate wine mate . I was alone at home, as hubby was part of the bridalparty and he stayed up the night with them all. He rang me to tell the news.
I am now OK with that I will be going through IVF but also so scared as I google and read up on women my age who aren't successful. We have a friend who is just 29 and has been doing IVF for 3 years with no success, and is now having to use a donor egg as her eggs are no good. I'm just wondering if there are women out there with only one fallopian tube that works and older like me and first timers.
Needing some IVF support and advice. Wondering what happens after this ultrasound? We see the FS at the end of this month for results and the next step. I have all the paperwork filled in and just need to send off.
I'm so glad I found this forum that helps women going through IVF.
Thank you for reading my post and hope to make new friends.