oh my sweet boy. thank you so much for what you wrote. I am so sorry i didn't see it until tonight. Don't know how i missed it.
Things are looking much better! Just me personally. I told a few more friends my suspicions and they all looked at me like i was on drugs!! Braxley makes awesome eye contact. He looks right at you, as if his eyes could talk. That's why no one believed me.
My pediatrician appointment was finally yesterday, i waited 2 bloody months, for an half an hour appointment. I wasn't sure what to expect. SO i just told him my concerns, he started with the usual questions i guess, he looked rather bored actually. then as i was answering (the while time braxley kept getting toys and giving them to the pediatrician and mumbled) he grabbed some sheet and asked more specific questions.
About 20 mins my older son left the room to go to the toilet and man Braxley had a meltdown. he was screaming his lil lungs out, banging on the door, even got a few head butts in there. I picked him up tried to calm him down but he wouldn't, kept screaming out 'yah yah' - his name for his brother. As soon as my older son came back, he stopped and continued with handing the pediatrician things.
I always feel like i have to explain braxleys behaviour, but i tried hard not to. and for the first time, he tried explaining the behaviour to me.
He said - exact words - "there is no doubt in my mind that braxley is autistic" he then explained the spectrum and said we need to get him into see psych and speech pathologist asap so we can get funding for him so we can both get help.
I cried ALOT yesterday, in relief that it wasnt all in my head. that i wasnt just imagining it all. In sadness, that this is the life for my child. That things are going to just that much harder. but i have kind of accepted it now, even tho i did already know, hearing a pediatrician say that is pretty confronting.
Family and friends have done a flip they believe me now! thankfully i dont have that battle anymore!
Now im in protective mum mode.... get the best help i can for my son. despite the cost, im going private for his proper diagnosis just so its done quickly. Things will just have to be a bit tight for a lil while.
Oh and to add a lil something different to everything. Braxley had an ear infection for a few weeks wouldnt go away saw an ENT, turns out his tonsils and adenoids are severely enlarged and have to come out, most likely in 3-4 months. i have had all this news in the last week, PLUS im house hunting, need to move which i know that braxley is going to have a hard time coping with. but we will deal with that when we get there!!
My gosh sorry didnt mean to prattle on. feeling ALOT better than i did last time i posted, not angry any more. I know WHY brax is the way he is and i understand that now.
Now that i know Brax is autistic i will be posting a lil more often.... i felt kinda silly before, like i was imganing it all and how stupid i was being if it turned out brax didnt have autism.