Carrie I am so sorry for your loss. I can not imagine how it must feel. Be kind to yourself
Funchu, I would so have tested 10 times over by now! haha
Cantwait, I am very much like you and test from about 9dpo. I usually test each day until af arrives. This month I tested once at 9dop then did not test again at all, and I actually prefer continually testing and seeing BFN's. I think it keeps me a little grounded and I then expect af. when I am still hoping and praying that i may be utd and af shows up I didn't cope so well with that.