Ok I'm staying at my parents place for Christmas, my grandmother is here too. I am exclusively bf my boy despite the pain of nipple thrush, cellulitis and cracks. That's not the problem.
I am so sick of the constant criticism - how I'm spoiling my 7 week old son, how if I'd just give him formula he'd be so much happier, how my milk is giving him an upset tummy (he had normal bf baby poo but as no-one here has bf they are sure it's diarrhoea and causing pain), how I should be training him to not want cuddles, how he should be sleeping thru the night etc. This is from my mother , grandmother and sil.
I am tired - I don't get much sleep at night as I am on baby duty and getting a day time sleep here is impossible. Mum is also totally stressed as she always over does Christmas and this year is no exception - they'll be about 20 people for lunch plus the 7 staying here. I am really starting to hate Christmas.
My poor DH is trying to help but he feels so out of place here - he's sleeping on the floor so bub and I can bed share. It's crowded. Mum means well (I hope) but she's all about keeping up appearances -constantly saying things like "it's always me who cleans up here, no-one helps" trying emotional blackmail while I'm bf-ing. I can't do cleaning and bf at the same time. My DH doesn't like to help mum cause whenever he tries she just takes the job off him declaring in a loud voice how he's doing it wrong or too slow (she does the same to my father - she's one of those people who can't be helped).
So here I am ranting at 2am when I should be sleeping. I'm just too wound up. I want to go home. I am so not in a Christmas mood as I know it'll be another day of me not doing the right thing. The only thing I asked for Christmas was 1/2 to myself to do some knitting (my hobby) - boy did that get shot down in flames. Apparently I am the most selfish person for requesting that. Yet if I'd asked for an expensive gift that would be fine.
Please tell me again how good bf is for my son. I need the reassurance in the face of so much negativity here.
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