Hi Riss, welcome to the thread! I'm so sorry you've gone through so much! I really don't have the answer why some of us have to endure so much. I find it harder and harder to pick up from each cycle. I only now feel I'm back to being myself after a failed one in December... I really hope this year will be ours and that we will finally get that illusive BFP with a baby at the end. I've downloaded a few of the books Beta suggested and will email you. I've done a lot of reading and research over the years and tried quite a few different treatments. I'm quite passionate about IVF and would be more than happy to share what I've learned so far in hope that I can save someone going through yet another cycle.
When are you planning cycling again?