Hi girls, sorry I haven't been on her too much lately but I have been checking in to see how you are. sorry siamsmum to hear it was a chem. I hope it all works out for you and all that are waiting for their miracle.
I have such devastating news I just need to get it out as it is killing me. Saturday afternoon my membrane ruptured unexpectedly we rushed to the hospital and I went into labour. Just after midnight my beautiful little boy was born sleeping. At 17 weeks 3 days there was nothing they could do. We don't know why this happened yet but my heart feels ripped to shreds we lost a baby at 10 weeks at the exact same time last year but this pain is so different as we got to hold him, tell him how much we love him and gave him a name- Gabriel- an angel.
I just woke up to go to the toilet and for a split second i forgot, then everything just came flooding back to me I can't sleep now. I have been positive this whole time but right now I feel utterly hopeless. My family and friends have been an amazing support even when they are grieving as well. And my hubby is my rock even when he is falling apart too.
We know we have to grieve but I just want to get back into it again. I know we have to wait a while but don't want to be waiting months. I hope Lynn will be able to see us again quickly so I can at least start taking some meds to prepare my body for a full cycle again! I didn't think this would be our reality again for a while and it's so upsetting. I just hope we have better results this time after the horrible egg pick up last time and at least have some frosties. I know Lynn's protocol helped me get pregnant and stay pregnant this time for the first trimester I hope it works again next time.
Sorry for the long post. I wish i had better news. Thanks for always supporting me during this cycle and pregnancy. You guys are amazing and we all deserve those precious babies we all want. Sorry it's just bad news I had to share this time.