I realise this is a public forum but I really feel the need to put down in words what I've been through over the past few days.
I had an ectopic pregnancy in my left tube last year which resolved naturally without needing any surgical intervention.We were so happy when we found out that I was again pregnant just over a year after our loss.
Imagine my distress when I noticed the tell-tale spotting last Thursday evening. To cut a long story short we rushed to casualty at RPA. After a long wait the gyno confirmed via an internal ultrasound and bloodwork that I was again carrying an ectopic pregnancy in my left tube. Even worse, it looked as though it was rupturing. I was taken in for an emergency salpingectomy (tube removal) which, of course, included removal of the baby. It was 'only' through laparoscopy which I guess I should be thankful for as the gyno had suspected that I would need the more invasive c-section type surgery due to the rupture.
I stayed in hospital until Sunday morning and have been mooching around at home ever since. I just feel so empty and sad - most of all about losing yet another baby but, bizarrely, also about my lost tube . I'm also still pretty sore and was surprised this morning when I started having very intense cramps.
I'm also stressed because I've had to call in sick for the week. I only started by job 2 months ago and I'm really nervous that the five days I've asked for off will seem over the top. But I feel really battered and torn at the moment, not to mention my charming habit of bursting into tears at least once an hour.
In any event, more than anything I'm really feeling very sad about the fact that neither of my two pregnancies was even close of coming to term. My husband and I are simply longing to have a family but I'm starting to think it might be out of reach for us. Again, sorry for all the moaning but I'm just a bit overwhelmed by it all.
I'd love to hear from others who have had a similar experience. What was your recovery time like? When did you feel 'normal' again? Sorry if this next question is too personal but - did you end up having a healthy pregnancy?