Ok so I'm having a really down day so WARNING this is a very whoa is me post.
We sold our house and moved from to a cheaper city (7 hours away) about 8 months ago so that we could get out of our accumulating debt and I could stay at home with DD because I was very depressed having went back to work full time since she was 3 months. Me and Dh fought all the time and his parents caused lots of issues (we worked for them and its a long story). We didn't think we could have anymore children and I wanted desperately to have some time at home with DD.
we were only here 3 months before I had an operation for endo and to separate my organs that had bound together ( many Dr in Canberra and all said I was fine, first Dr in melbourne and he found the cause of my issues at first appt).
So now I am 14weeks pregnant and should be delighted BUT I'm completely freaked out and not excited at all. I'm scared being in a city where I literally know no one and will be at home with two children. I miss my friends like crazy and am sad that I won't have them around to just pop in and visit or lend a hand when bub is born. I don't even know what we are going to do with DD whilst I am having this bub yet.
I have no idea how to meet people. I chat with other mums at the park etc but these are always different people and more a 'your child is lovely, nice day' etc type conversations. Hardly likely to lead to a friendship. I tried organizing meet ups with other bub hub mums but there is very few in my area. DH has asked if I want to move back and I do but there is no way we can live in Canberra on one wage and it would take all our savings just for moving costs. I know melbourne has better job opportunities and more things to see and do but I'm just so damn lonely and becoming very depressed. How do others with no friends or family around them cope? how do you meet people and fill your days?
I think it's worse at the moment because two of my friends are now on mat leave ( and another works part time) so I hear about all the catch ups and play dates and when I was working I didn't have much time for that and now I'm not working but I'm 7 hours away.