I feel completely deflated and so sad, DH and I have been arguing lately and I hate it! Usually we get along great and we love each each other very much.
I'm probably overreacting but I just need an outlet so sorry for the long winded post... but if you're bored this should give ya'll something to do!
Anyway to the issue, last night was like a punch to the gut. We joined the gym last week and I had a workout planned for 7 so I'm all ready to go and AF is back! DD is 8 months old so I'm sure I'm feeling very emotional and all, but off I go... When I come home she's asleep and he's holding her, if only he would put her to sleep and then put her in bed she'd sleep for hours! But NO he HAS to hold her which means as soon as the door opens she's awake! So I quickly grab her in a desperate attempt to dream feed her (she's been really hard to settle to sleep the last 2 weeks) so she's feeding and looks like she might go straight back to sleep and he says to me "I think you should feed her more solid foods" I explain that my milk supply increases as she grows and she's been growing! Also that aside from her lunch time solid meal I've been introducing a small meal/snack around dinner time... he says he's not convinced and she needs more food!!!! Argh so we set that aside and I try to rock/sing her to sleep, 3 times 3 bloody times I get her to sleep and he makes a noise or turns the lights on!!! I restrain myself to tell to be more careful, he says he's not doing it on purpose!arhh!!!! So after the 6th attempt at putting her in her cot at which she wakes up every time ( mind you every attemp is followed by 15 / 20 min of rocking and singing) I'm getting frustrated so I leave the room and tell him that she's awake again and that was my 6th try... he says maybe she's not tiered!!!!! Omg seriously!!!!! So he has a go (while sitting in front of the computer... no way in hell she's falling asleep like that! And I go to bed, 10 min later he asks if its ok if she lays down with me, I say fine... which is followed another hour of trying to put her to sleep, finally she's asleep and he comes in and I tell him why does he have to insult my parenting why doesn't he believe me when I tell him she's tiered or hungry? I spend ALL day everyday with her I KNOW the cues... He says " I just want the best for my baby" ... WTF like I don't!!!! What does that even mean!?!
I wake up this morning and he's left a msg saying "I was insensitive last night, I'm really sorry" SO he was insensitive because I'm over sensitive coz I have AF (he mentioned me having been crazy lately) AND where's I love u ... Just I'm sorry!
Thank u for reading this... :-)