I want you all to meet 20 year old Siân. She is outgoing, vivacious and incidentally, she weighs 60kgs. She does cartwheels in public places and loves herself (possibly a little too much?). 20 year old Siân is where I want to be again only with 10 years more experience under my belt because she really doesn't know quite as much as she thinks she does!
I keep this picture as a reminder of the person that I've been hiding away for a long time. A person who proudly poses for photos because she's okay with how she looks. A person who walks with her head held high and not looking down. A person who smiles and means it because she's genuinely happy with her life.
I'm getting back there, slowly. I've made progress, I have. I wore a skirt to work today and I felt like I looked really cute. When I posed for a photo for my birthday invitations, I even liked four of the eight photos we took!