So I wake up this morning and its like the last 5 years hit me like a tonne of bricks!!! I moved from Townsville to Brisbane 5 years ago and in that time I made 1 friend who since then has moved interstate. I have managed to get through the last few years barely, feeling very alone and wondering 97% of the time what the hell is wrong with me that no one wants to be around me? I met a wonderful man about 2 years into being here and we are about to have our second child together but he can only give me so much. He treats me well and gives me everything i need in life but when it comes to sitting and listening to how I'm feeling he's just not cutting it anymore I don't know if the pregnancy is making my loneliness seem a lot worse then it has over the years but I'm struggling to get through my days of late. I have a son in prep and I have tried so very hard to connect with the other mothers at his school but I get treated like I have something contagious *sigh*. Is it me or are people these days simply just not willing to meet anyone new? I'm terrified that if I spend anymore time alone I'm going to end up depressed. I have cried all morning and its getting very tiring doing this three times a week for the last few years! Is it possible to lead a happy healthy life alone with no friends or family at all? Are my children going to be enough to keep me going for a few more years? These are the questions the go through my mind every second of every day! Is there anyone out there who knows what I'm going through, if there Is id love to hear from you.
Emma, rochedale south Brisbane QLD