Happy New Years girls, hope you were able to have as good a night as possible.
RE: Your period Munch. I often only have a "regular/light" bleed for 2-3 days and then only a day or two of spotting, so I kinda think you shouldn't worry, many regularly have light periods or periods that don't last many days. Ovulating...You can physically tell you are ovulating because a week or two before your period you get a kinda clear/whitish discharge for about a week or so, thinner when you're "fertile" and thicker on the day or two you actually ovulate. So if this was your normal period, in about 12 days you should start to notice the discharge I am talking about. You'll work it out! Did you have your appt with your OB/GYN? I would honestly wait until you have all your autopsy results back before TTCing. Even though your OB says she doesn't think anything was wrong with Skye, having all your answers before getting pregnant again, I think, would really help with peace of mind. I would think you only have a week or two longer to wait for those results anyways, right? Timing wise, will be great if you can figure out how to make your pregnancy work with all you want to do this next year, but keep in mind that you may not get pregnant straight away (or you may!) so timing is not always going to be perfect for all your future plans. Like with ovulating, you'll work it out!
Let me know what you figure out with the Teddy Bear Drive and how it all works. I'd love to help and if not, at least donate some bears, or do the same for Clem or even do it together, but understand you may want it just for Skye. No worries on any front, just know that I would love to help in someway even if it's just a bear! Good idea doing it for her EDD, I may copy you for Clem's EDD!
When I was looking for an infant urn online I came across a few websites that also had a few necklaces. Etsy also had some as well, so that may be a way to find a more affordable one since Etsy is usually affordable but then special because it's creative people hand-making things. I'm ok with leaving her at home, I think??? We don't have her back yet so maybe I can't answer that question honestly. I haven't thought about her being here while I'm at work but have thought about taking her up to Port Douglas with us (that went along with my "what if there's a fire" fears). We're engraving DH's wedding ring for his something special and then having a necklace made for me. Just a simple, small gold bar with "Clementine" on the front and Dec. 5 2012 on the back. I want it as small and "dainty" as possible because I don't really wear jewelry and if I'm going to wear it every day I want it to be simple/elegant. We haven't actually bought it yet, our jeweler is making it and I'm nervous about fully committing the money because I don't know if I'll like the finished product. I'm trying to find similar styles of necklaces to try on so I can at least see if I like how it looks on me, how it would sit, etc. I want my wedding ring engraved as well...I'll just do everything!
I wasn't offended by you speaking about Skye's birth certificate, don't worry!
Your therapist may have been away for the holidays so maybe just try calling her tomorrow. Had she not said anything about being away?
Our parents are driving me nuts. They have been told more than once what we need from them and that we are communicating with others. They just keep pushing and are obviously not understanding. Since it is all by email I'm just not going to respond anymore. No matter how much I try to explain it all it's obviously not getting through to them and the constant back and forth is frustrating and draining me so I'm just going to no respond to those types of emails and hope they just leave it.
We had a nice night last night with a few friends. I thought I would only last a couple hours but made it to past midnight and really enjoyed myself. That particular group of friends has been really great for us. But at midnight my heart broke. Everyone kept saying "Happy 2013" and that they knew 2013 would be a great year for us. They didn't say anything wrong but it just made me sad because 2013 was meant to be Clem's year and saying goodbye to 2012 and the only months I had her in my tummy felt like a really big goodbye. I had a few glasses of bubbles and felt guilty again today. This what happens, I all the sudden get really upset and think to myself "What are you doing?! You're about to have a baby and can't be doing stuff like this!" and then I realize that no, I'm not pregnant anymore and it makes me so sad. I've been a little numb today and have really wanted to have a massive cry but can't get anything out. Ugh.
We have found a catsitter! I would have boarded them as a last result but they are both indoor cats and I thought 10 days boarding would have been really stressful for them, or any cat! But yeah! A friend sent our message out and found a friend of theirs that wants to do it so I am feeling very relieved about that. She seems like a nice girl, coming over tomorrow to meet me.
Have a good night ladies. xo