Sleeping isn't too much of a problem. Because we've been watching the Big Bang theory box set we have been having late nights though. Because we both don't have to be up for anything in particular in the morning we tend to stay up until we're exhausted then die in bed. Only problem is DH wakes up earlier than I'd hope for so bam, I'm awake.
I did get some sleeping tablets. I wanted to have them there for the just in case. I didn't want to have problems sleeping in the coming weeks only to have to then go to a GP and have to explain everything all over again.
So yeah we have them if needs be. Haven't touched them yet though so good girl me!
As for counseling I spoke to DH about that yesterday or the day before. He said he'd definitely want to seek counseling and thought it would be beneficial for me too but his comment was maybe not this week. I know how that might sound but I think he's thinking its still early and to try to grieve as much as we need to naturally...??
So I think we'll sort that out on Monday. Coz by that stage we'll have Skye's ashes back so that's when we can 'complete the puzzle' if you know what I mean.
Had my best friend come over last night. First time I've seen here since everything happened. She's been hanging to come over since she found out. Just wants to do her job and be there for me. Many times over the weekend I was messaging her saying yep I'm ready and then seconds later messaging her again to say I'm sorry. I thought I was... But I'm not... Same thing happened yesterday then I decided that I'm never going to be ready, just need to make the stand and be strong so allowed her to come over.
She's the only person/family I've allowed in besides my mum, dad, brother and sister... It was hard but I find myself putting on a strong face when people are around, the second the door closes behind them when they leave, I'm a complete mess....
Anyways, thanks for listening. X