Hi munch ..
My week has pretty much been the same .. Up down and everything else all around !!!
Very sorry to hear you've been having a bad .. Emotional week.. I have weeks.. Days.. Moments like that.. I think it totally normal to have Moments.. Days.. Weeks.. Like that during the 1st years ... Moreso in the lead up to our due dates..
You saw the counsilor on your on ???? How did you go ??? Did you just speak ur mind although it may not have made any sense.. Or feel like you were repeating urself ?? If so ...that's good, cause that's how I am ..
Has your boss still been supportive with you taking some more time off work ?? And other people in the office ?? Do they talk to you normally ??
What detail do you need from me to join the Facebook group ??
Naughty little puppies you have there !!! And that's the thanks you get for being nice when they could have been outside getting wet !!!
When I'm sad & need a moment I listen to the songs we played during the cermony ..I love the songs!!! I find myself I entranced in the words & remembering my birth & the funnel.. Replaying everthing in my mind, I get teary but I dont mind, i want that closeness.. I'm starting to not want to forgot the memories.. I Dont want to forget anything but I cant bring myself to look at pictures..
Still no news on the plaque .. So no burial yet elly was talking about the baby .. Asking if he wld have been a naughty boy, what would he look like? Would he be cheeky at school .. Strange how she comes out with these things sometimes.. Just out if the blue !!!
With the ttc thing... I just don't know.. I've been told by a few psychics that I have 3 children.. Also a boy, currently I have 2 girls.. and you know my situation with my baby that I lost .. So that little glimmer if hope ... Maybe ... Just maybe ... I'll have another .. But that's where my mind.. Mental issues continue.. We conceived with ivf ,.. We aren't doing ivf again!!! Will we have a natural miracle baby ?? Geez I don't know.. How do I completely let go of not growing our family !!! Or do I need to change my thinking and Enjoy the family that I have !! Do I still need to be greedy and want another ??? But then I feel if I don't keep wanting ... contemplating .... another ... Did I really want .. Urn for my baby that I lost ???? Does that mean we/I was only destined 2 be a family of 4.. Will I forget how excited and happy I was to be pregnant ?? Sorry think I'm waffling on !!!
Glad to hear that Obs already has a plan for you with ur next pregnancy!! So you already have reassurance there that's good, track ur cycle so you get a clearly picture of when you can actually test.. Not having any in the house also helps ..not sure how serious you wanted to get with ur tracking but there's some apps out there that can help keep every thing organised so you know where you are in ur cycle ..
I'm sure it's daunting, stressful and upsetting that your having to go through this soooo soon after already being pregnant .. I'm sure ur head is playing mind games already !! Totally normal !!! But totally Sux !!!
Kirst ... Hello again... Thinking of you ... Hope your getting some clear answers you need to move forward. & ttc again !!!!