I'm sitting on the train to work. I've done my Rush workout for this morning and I'm ready for the weekend. Human relationships are a funny thing, I've always had a habit on relying on other people too much for emotional support. When you're as unhappy within yourself as I've been for the last decade, well, I guess if I hadn't had other people to prop me up, I probably wouldn't be standing now.
Yesterday was a wake-up call for me. I'm still proud of the way I handled the situation and my emotional reaction to it but it's also made me recognise that I need to be stronger within myself. I don't want to be the toxic friend that everyone has to support all the time, the one who can't stand on her own two feet.
I've said before that people have told me repeatedly how strong I am while simultaneously being the only thing stopping me from falling in a hole. It's time for me to actually be strong, to rely on myself for a change and know that I won't let myself down. So yes, I'm fragile right now but I will get stronger over time and I will slowly but surely learn to deal with my emotions in a healthy way.