I have been blessed (or something) with a really good pregnancy up until now (39 weeks, 4 days). Last week I started to get some funny blood pressure readings on some machines, but when I went to the hospital it was all fine. I had a migraine once last week and once yesterday. My feet are much more swollen and hideous than normal (according to the medicos). All tests for pre-eclampsia came back clear but everyone still thinks there's a problem.
Situation now is that baby is estimated at about 4.2kg, based on a 35 week scan that said 3.1kg at that stage. He will also almost certainly be posterier. He is not engaged at all, cervix is 1/2 to 1cm dilated and has been that way for two weeks. Apparently if my latest blood tests come back bad I'm booked for a cs on Saturday. If they are fine I'm being induced on Monday, but OB thinks that's unlikely to work, so probably looking at a cs on Tuesday instead.
Added to that I was also told today that because I've had a breast reduction I'm unlikely to be able to solely breast feed.
It sounds stupid but I feel bad that I probably can't birth or feed this child. I've kept myself healthy, have stuck religiously to diets, stayed off alcohol throughout the pregnancy etc. Why the hell can't my body just produce the right hormones etc to start labour? I'm frustrated and annoyed and I feel inadequate.