Balance. I'm not talking about keeping yourself upright (although figuratively I guess I am), I'm talking about managing everybodies needs, including my own.
My DD is 3 (in 2 sleeps), she is a bit of a late night baby and doesn't really sleep during the day anymore. She is used to my attention being focused mainly on her, and we really are a bit of a double act. But this creates some challenges when it comes to Zumba.
Our house is very small so she is never far away when I am working out, sometimes she joins in, sometimes she tries to sabotage me by putting toys under my feet so I always have to be on my guard.
Anyway, I digress. Yesterday, I planned to Zumba in the early evening and realised that I had forgotten to make cupcakes for daycare today so I ended up making (and remaking) cupcakes, icing, cleaning up mess etc. Suffice to say, the night just got away from me and I didn't get around to Zumba-ing. Fail.
Fast forward to today, at work I was beating myself up for not doing my workout last night. Then when I got home I cooked dinner, Dh sat with DD to eat dinner while I worked out. Not eating with my family - Fail. After she left the table she came over and started pulling my hand to have a tea party with her. Fail. She then went past me into the bathroom, got the potty, brought it out to near me did a wee and poo, then before I realised she picked up the potty and took it into the bathroom and emptied it. A 3 year old, cleaning her own potty (Dh was in the study so he missed this too). Fail. Mummy can you read me a story, "Mummy has to finish her Zumba". Fail.
From all of this I have decided that I have to remember that I am not a bad person for doing Zumba while DD plays, but I also have to remember that I am a mum, that playing with my daughter matters and that if my plans fall over because I am responding to her needs, I can make sure I get on to it the next day. I am changing and improving my life and my families life, and I am absolutely committed to doing so, but that is a marathon, not a sprint.
My workout tonight was Exhilirate. I am getting so much better at it, but I wish that I had the Zumba shoes, I think they would help me with moving because I do find that my shoes grab the floor a bit too much so I don't get as much leg twists as I should do.
Sorry, that was a bit of a sooky laa laa post tonight. I think that I am not looking forward to work tomorrow. I am working all day at the cricket (on my feet, possibly a fair bit of time in the sun) and then have to come home and make and decorate DD's birthday cake (purple dinosaur) and get the house into some sort of fit state to allow people in on Saturday.