My LO is now 2 weeks old. Most of the time I am coping ok, but then there are the other times I just want to scream and cry.
He wakes up every two hours if not more often at night for a feed. By the time I feed and burp him then get him back to bed I feel like I myself am in bed for half an hour (realistically it's probably more like an hour). By the morning I just feel exhausted.
He will then be calm for a few hours and sleep ok but then usually around lunch time (or 3-4pm if I'm lucky) he will just cry and be unsettled. He acts hungry most of the time I thought but I'm starting to realize that his hands in his mouth are not necessarily hunger signs but tired signs.
He won't go to sleep in his bed like everything says he is meant to. I'm trying to only cuddle him until he's almost asleep and then put him down and pat him to sleep but then other times the only way I can get him to sleep is to cuddle him or sleep with him. And now I'm worried I'm doing everything wrong.
I usually manage to get an hours sleep during the day so am not feeling too tired really but I'm feeling like I'm going to snap soon. When he's crying and won't stop I just feel like screaming for him to be quiet. And then I feel guilty about feeling that way and I just want to cry.
I am resenting hubby that he can still go about his day mostly unchanged, yet I am constantly on call for this little being. Don't get me wrong he is doing as much as he can for us but i'm breastfeeding so there is only so much he can do.
I love my little boy so much but part of me keeps asking myself what have I done.