Ok today has been super hard for me, my eldest daughter is very sick on the other side of country. I just want to get on a plane and be there. I have been crying all day, which makes me want to eat and eat and eat. Of course the chocolate craving is huge. I just want to eat a family bar of chocolate, I know that won't make her better and it certainly won't help me but it a huge driving force with in me. It would be just so easy to go to the cupboard and eat the whole packet of oreo's or the huge packet of bbq chips or even a LCM.
Unlike a lot of you my house is not temptation free because I figure to make this lifestyle change that there will always be temptation around so I might as learn to deal with. Anyhow back to chocolate craving, of course after school I had to call into coles to get milk and bread and there at the ends of the aisle was huge stacks of chocolate. I walked past a few times and I even reached out to grab one. I resisted but I decided to comprise and head down to the cold section and a diet chocolate mouse. They are nowhere as good as the hunts ones you can get a woolies but it hit the spot. I am learning slowly how to work my way through this muddy pond called getting fit and getting real.
I haven't done my Zumba yet as I am just so over the top emotionally tired but I promise I will do it before my head hits the pillow. I haven't missed a day yet and I don't plan on make today any different.