Today is the day i will find out if my baby is still alive . It all started last monday i had some brown spotting so changed my scan date that i was going to have on the friday to the monday. All went well and i came home happy and smilling baby was meausuring almost on time 6wks2days only 2 days off but that was normal as i was meant to be 6wks4days heartbeat was 114bpm.
Next day the spotting turned pink didnt worry me too much as i saw my baby the day before and all was well, then wednesday comes along and bleeding turned red and more of it! I panicked got my mum to come look after my son and headed for the hospital blood test showed hcg levels on the lower side 3000 i never had any previous hcg tests in this pregnancy so don't know if it had dropped.
After waiting around3-4hrs i finally go for scan had to have internal as it was too small to see this also happened in previous scan. As i went to empty bladder before internal scan a gush of blood came out i just knew it was the end of my babies life. The man doing the scan was very quiet and took forever! At the end i asked him if my baby was still alive he said amazingly yes! But he didnt make it sound good i said is the heartbeat ok he said it's on the low side .
I finally get taken back to my room and after waiting a while wondering and stressing the doctor says you have a sac, fetus and heartbeat and this can go either way 50/50 chance things could always pick up. He told me to go home and come straight back if get severe cramps or soaking a pad. Otherwise i will have another scan and blood test monday arvo and have also an appointment at early pregnancy unit if baby is still alive. I cried on the way home and just knew the worse was going to happen as i started getting light period cramps.
I prayed for a miracle, within an hour the cramps went away but bleeding continued but not that heavy. Thursday continued bleeding but never soaking pads, friday same had some back pain but not severe then bleeding eased even more friday arvo and has now been getting lighter each day just mainly spotting and goes from really light pink to sometimes watery red, this is so confusing im praying for a miracle today! But im also prepared for the worse, i know that whatever happens there are other people out there going thru much worse then what i am there are people who loose their babies at birth, i know i need to be strong.
Please pray for me today for a miracle i have faith that a miracle can happen and i really hope it does