So after a break in a condom and an ineffective MAP, I find myself pregnant with baby #4.
Our first child was unplanned, but termination never came across my mind. I was an unplanned bub myself, and I had a stable job and whilst young, the capacity for a massive life change.
Fast forward almost a decade later and our 3rd bub is 10 months old. Baby #3 had a rough start in NICU for a months and the entire pregnancy was stressful. I also feel at capacity. The night the breakage happened was the night before I went back to work. The worst timing ever.
There are many reasons termination is right for me, for us as a family - not just our financial situation, but my mental health - just the thought of going through another pregnancy right now freaks me out completely.
But I didn't want to put myself in this situation. If I win lotto, I know I'd be able to make mental and financial space for another cutie in our family.
No-one must actually ever want to be put in a position where they need to even make this choice. Damn, that's why I was using contraception!!
Anyway, I needed to vent. I've been avoiding the whole issue, and just needed to let it out.
Thanks Ladies for listening xx