When I got my BFP through IVF, I was plagued by anxiety that something may happen to my bub. I could not rest throughout my whole pregnancy cos I was so scared I will lose my baby. When I dont feel him move, I freak out and must do something to get him to move, then I will be at ease. I had to rent a doppler to just listen to his HB. It is so hard. And we decided to induce him at near 39 weeks cos we were so scared of stillbirth. And even thought of csect in case the umbilical cord wraps round his neck. There are just so many worries and what ifs that plagued me. So I feel for you and your loss.
Pls know that we are here for you if you need to rant and need a listening ear.