DS is 20 months old and DD is 2 weeks old.
I have been feeling very guilty since DD is born because I cant spend as much time with DS. I cry everytime he wants a cuddle and I am unable to cuddle him because i am breastfeeding. DH would take him out to the park and DS would cry as he leaves the house becauae he wants me to go with him but i have to stay home and mind DD.
DS used to co sleep with me and would cuddle up to me in the night and wake me up in the mornings with lots of cuddles and kisses but since DD is born we havent been co sleeping and i just miss all that so much.
DD at the moment is quite a sleeper during the day and i have been trying to spend some time playing with DS whenever DD is asleep. However when shes asleep i am also super tired and have no energy to actually play with DS plus i would try to get some work done too.
I just feel like i havent spent much quality time with DS and i am paranoid that he will love me less. I know this sounds silly
I feel so guilty and feel like a horrible mother. I havent even had the energy to cook something yummy for the family since DD is born.
I feel so jealous of DH, he gets to do all the things with DS that i cant.
Then i also feel bad about DH. Hes been so supportive and have put up with a lot of me crying and has been doing his work and mine and also helping with housework as much as he can and i just feel so guilty and feel ashamed that i cant even cope with 2 babies with all that help.
How do you spread your time between 2 under 2 and all the house work and work?
How do you make sure your toddler is still getting a lot of you and spends quality time together?