So I hope it's okay that I'm blogging so often, they did say we can blog as often as we like lol! What I'm tending to do is blog once in the morning on the train to work and once again in the evening straight after my workout. The morning ones are more about how I'm feeling emotionally and the evening ones are more about how I'm feeling physically (and emotionally because I'm a bit of a mess right now lol!).
I have good days and bad days. Tomorrow I am expecting a bad day but I'll blog about that then. Yesterday and today haven't been so bad (although today has only just started!). I think a part of that can be attributed to this challenge, so much of my time is spent hating myself for the way I look that knowing that I'm finally really doing something about it is making me feel a bit better.
I have 12 weeks till my 30th birthday. I would like to be within 5kgs of the "ideal" BMI at that time. That means losing 15kgs, that also means being good over the Christmas period, ack! I know that means losing a bit more than 1kg a week but I think it's still a healthy weight loss given I'll probably lose more to begin with and less as I get closer to a healthy weight.
I have to be honest, it's terrifying typing these goals in "public" as it were. People can see...they will know if I fail. I actually think it's a good thing though because as scary as it is, it means that I'm accountable for my actions.
I think I've said this before but I'll say it again. I wish more than anything that I could get to a point where my weight isn't an issue. Where I have the kind of body where I can just put anything on and it'll look good. I want being active and healthy to become second nature to me because that is the only way I'll get there.