So I'm 34 weeks pregnant. And yes like most women I'm really over it and getting impatient. But that's not what's bothering me!!!
Here's my vent.... This has been a tough pregnancy.
-felt nauseas 24/7 for the first 16-18 weeks
-had the runs
-have had such bad back pain early on I couldn't walk and needed physio. Doctors initially thought I had uti or infection so freaked me out.
-anaemic. So bad I passed out and got taken to hospital
-needed holter monitoring because my heart was being weird. Worrying!
-very low blood pressure. Like dizzy and fainting.
-and I'm on my fourth nasty cold since getting pregnant. This one is so bad I've pulled all my stomach muscles from coughing.
I'm glad it hasn't been worse with vomiting all the way through etc though.
And I've been working but having 1 day off per fortnight (ish) because I've struggled so badly.
And to top it off at my 20 week scan a very serious heart defect was found in our baby that has massive implications for the future and obviously has affected my pregnancy etc. also life stresses with my husband hospitalized three time for pneumonia and then got made redundant. So it's been hard and I've still managed to work. All in the last 20 ish weeks.
So yesterday I turn up to work (I'm a teacher) and a friend (who was one my closest friends on staff) says 'you're sick again??' Rolls eyes because she sees me blowing my nose/coughing etc. like somehow its my fault?!? She is also pregnant. I say yeah, I'm so over it and she basically responds in a patronizing way oh big pity party then???
Funnily enough, I haven't had a big pity party though if anyone deserved one I think I'd make the list. I go to work... Laugh, make jokes, do my job well and rarely talk about our problems with the baby. Even though some days I'd like to crawl into bed and cry!!!
She even had people make her meals early in pregnancy because she hates cooking and wasn't even sick. Just breezing through pregnancy. Which is wonderful for her. I should mention she's not the only person who has said this. Like somehow I deliberately went and wiped cough/cold germs all over me so I would get sick.
I'm sick of it!! Which is good because I only have four days left of work.
I wish people who breeze through pregnancy wouldn't judge those who don't. For some of us it's really hard.
No question here... Just wanted a safe place to vent my frustrations.
(I'm thankful for the really supportive people though I work with).