I have been separated from my parter since DD was 3 days old, she is now 8 months, during that time he has been mostly missing in action, suffering depression and basically partying. Me on the other hand has had to cope from day dot with a baby that never slept and clung to me like a koala 24/7. I work from home with her and have since she was weeks old and I can't tell you how hard that is and continues to be but on the other hand I can't bring myself to get a sitter. I'm getting off topic but I'm tired and stressed. Anyway long story short my partner convinced me to try again with him as he had gone on antidepressants, has started counselling for his many issues and had magically turned into somebody I was pround to be with, it had been wonderful, he has even gone out on bought a house to accommodate us and my children from I previous marriage, I have my own home but it's just too small for us all. Anyway yesterday he slept all day, I had an appointment at 3 and I had to wake him up to move his car ( it was parked behind mine and I can't drive a manual) he had promised to watch bub all day so I could clear work without interruptions, he slept instead and I just battled through the day till I had to wake him so I could go, he completely overreacted about being woken and did a burnout thing and went home to his house, I was majorly upset but put bub in the car and had an hour meeting with clients with her trying not to cry. Later on when she went to bed I realised he had left his phone here, and I couldn't help myself, I read all his messages while we were separated, he lied and lied and lied and said an accused me of the most vile things to mostly people I know and his family, I'm so humiliated I nearly can't breath, it's awful to imagine that all these people have this impression of me. How do I approach this with him, I shouldn't have read his phone I guess but the temptation was too great, he also wrote these things when he clearly wasn't right in the head, but yesterday was a reminder of what life is like with him, I am actually scared to wake him up! It's just an awful day and I don't know what to do next, any advice would be appreciated.