Not sure where to put this, but needed to get it off my chest.
I go to my GP's clinic to get bt's done. My fs is tracking my estrogen levels and things have been moving slowly, so I've had quite a few done over the last few weeks. Each time I've seen my GP in passing and we've waved, occasionally his stuck his head around the corner to have a bit of a chat. Today he told the lady taking my blood to get me to come to his room afterwards. So I waited around for a bit.
Anyway. He asked me if I was angry at him, because last time I hadn't smiled and been happy to see him. Had he done something wrong? I assured him I was just tired and upset from the meds I'm on. He patted his belly and asked how it was going (IVF) and what all the bt's were for, so I explained but he stopped listening to me. He asked for my phone number, and when I said reception had it, and why did he want it he asked if I didn't want him to have it. He obviously didn't want to get it from them. He asked what I was doing this weekend, and I said I was working. What am I doing next weekend? Don't know, dp will be in and I keep all that time free for him. When will I have a weekend off? I work on a roster, so that's ages away. What's wrong, don't I want him to call me? Umm, freaking no! Didn't say that though. Just diverted away from that. Went to leave and he opened his arms wide for a hug. This isn't the first time he's hugged me, but usually I'm good at deflecting it and he backs off for a few visits. I convince myself I'm overreacting and imagining things, and forget about it. About a year ago he tried to arrange for our families to do some things together, but I'd completely pushed that away. Am I freaking for a reason, or does it sound like he's just pushing to be friends? He's not Australian, so maybe he's not picking up on the social cues?
This is the best Drs clinic in a 40 min drive, and I don't want to leave it. But i don't need to go for personal reasons often, just to get my ad script so I suppose I could do that anywhere. Thing is, I'm a disability support worker, and most of my clients go to him so I don't want to make waves and have things be awkward for work visits. It's almost impossible to get Drs to accept my clients onto their books, and I won't do anything to jeopardize that.
I don't know what I want from posting this, except maybe to get it out. I'm very unsettled and not sure how to handle it.