My husband and I have 2 girls aged 7 and 5 and a boy aged 1. I have recently experienced a miscarriage of what would of been our fourth baby due to a fall in the kitchen created by my one year old son throwing stuff around the floor.
I am very upset at this loss and now have mixed feelings about whether to go for another baby or not.
I can't help thinking that if I didn't fall I would still be pregnant now and I would be happy and my husband and I would work things out. A fourth baby is not off the cards but it wasn't something we planned either.
I now find myself questioning and trying to analize how and why I feel this way. Am i just grieving the loss of the baby or do i really want another.
I guess I am on here to either see what others have to say to this. I guess it its really upto me to figure this all out but i have been going through this in my mind for weeks now and can't come up with anything apart from me really wanting to have another baby now.
Dh is not keen on another baby yet, he would prefer to wait another year until our youngest son is older.
Thanks for listening and any adivce would be good.