Thank you so much to everyone for your replies and support and understanding . I can't thank you all enough for just getting it, even those of you that don't have SN children.
I was really worried no one would understand just how upset I was and would think my reaction was silly and selfish and ungrateful. I just feel heartbroken . I can't even look at he's beautiful face without my heart hurting .
Would love to hear from more people with positive stories and experiences . Especially those with older children that have ASD ?
As a PP stated , the future does look bleak at the moment, and I know that's probably ridiculous but just thinking he will never speak is enough to make me sob let alone all the other challenges he may face.
Thank you again much .