Fullofhope..... No that's not a silly idea. I'm sorry for the stressors your family are facing at the moment, Christmas is such a terrible time to be going through anything difficult, but you really need to be in the right frame of mind and be ready to invest 100% of yourself. Ivf can be stressful enough on its own, there are so many drugs to remember to take at specific times, appointments to attend etc. Plus sounds like your family might really need you around at the moment. Get stuck back into it all when your ready.