Well hubbers, honestly I just need to let some of this out. And figured other hubbers could do the same with their own upsets and worries.
I'm nineteen, 14 weeks pregnant and starting to feel like I can't catch a break, it's safe to say, pregnancy blues has got me good.
My boyfriend and I can't seem to find a house despite numerous rental applications. His job is keeping us both stable as currently I'm not obtaining anything from centrelink, but I can't seem to find work.
My mother hasn't really come to the table with the pregnancy, which I was angry about but am now just worried for her as doctors have found a large lump on her ovary, which could be cancerous.
I'm worried I won't know how to be a good parent and won't know how to give this baby the life it deserves. I would like to study after the birth to become a nurse though, so still plan on doing something my child can be proud of me for.
My dad lives in another state, so I don't get to see him despite our close relationship.
Then yesterday I found out I have glauycoma, so am losing sight in my left eye.
I feel like I've lost control and I cant really think of facing the world at the moment. I am so thankful for my partner though, and I do love this baby.
I've just got the blues.