….. so much to say, to get off my chest.
I live my Mum, Dad, my sister, her 2 kids (5,2) and my son (6).
Mum came home last night, after 5 days up the coast at her Mums recuperating after her surgery, and I suppose thinking time as well. So, as I may have mentioned before Mum and Dad are not in the greatest of places at the moment. They may as well be living separate lives, for they speak to each other as much as you would speak to your work colleague. Dad doesn’t speak to my sister or I, and very rarely with the kids. Dad doesn’t treat Mum with respect and does not attempt to make life any easier now that Mum is the only bread winner and Dad is retired. My sister and I have always said Mum should leave- that kind of relationship wouldn’t be good enough for me, so why should it be good enough for the ones I love.
Well, last night my sister comes in just before bed to tell me that Mum told her she was going to ask Dad to take the caravan and go and live in a caravan park 40min away.
Than to slowly rebuild the relationship (not sure if this was meant to be with Mum, or us kids/grandkids- probably a combination/everyone). I’m not sure if Mum is thinking this to be a permanent thing, temporary, separated or divorce.
I’m happy for Mum- it’s gotta be a step in the right direction but it’s not relief or happiness that I’m feeling. It’s anxiousness. I didn’t sleep well last night- clenching my teeth the whole night and waking up with my whole body very heavy and tired. I’m not sure why I’m anxious but I am.