Did you get any of the early testing? Like, did you have your hcg tested every two days or so, for reassurance? Did you bother with early scans?
I was just wondering what I would do next time, if I should fall pregnant again. Part of me thinks I would want to get my hcg tested every 48hrs, because I just wouldn't be able to relax into the idea of being pregnant. I have also sworn black and blue that I won't be going for any early scans. When I have my next 'first scan' I want there to be either a heartbeat, or for it to be obvious that no one is home. No more of this waiting and wishing.
I also imagine not being comfortable with the idea of being pregnant. Never really accepting it. To me, pregnancy seems like such a flimsy state to be in, even though I've had 2 babies already. I honestly can't imagine How hard it is for those who have had recurrent m/c.