Trying to "relax" (haha) about this whole ttc process, but it does not come easily or naturally. I'm a planner, a goal setter & totally hating not being in control of anything with this particular goal!
It is not helped by the fact that I have stayed in a job I don't particularly like, because the leave & conditions are good. I have tolerated that until now, because it has financed things, allowed time off for travel etc. I could cope with it knowing that in 7 months time I'd be off on mat leave...and able to return part time (as well as expanding my at home business). Now it is just doing my head in! I'm stuck there & have to make the best of it. Doh.
I thought I had my cycles sussed, but this month, trying OPKs has left me more mystified than ever (all negative). I thought I'd already o'd, but now on CD 19 I'm getting signs. DH has been away with work this week, not great timing...I shall pounce on him as soon as he gets home. Enough messing around with pee or temps I never remember to take. It's dtd every 2 days I say. (he won't complain...)
Not a lot of point to this other than relieving my tension...not many people know we are ttc. I didn't realise how much it plays on the emotions. I was never clucky before....now the maternal urge has kicked in so strongly, I don't know myself. I just Want.To. Be. Pregnant. Now!
Surely I am not the only nutter? Please make me feel better!