I've kinda developed a completely irrational fear of surgery. before i birthed my dd i was fine with any surgey, infact i would be excited (sounds crazy i know but i used to think it was cool) but since my birth i have had 2 minor surgeries and have completely freaked out and have been so so very sick thinking about it.
I have to have surgery on Friday and i cant tell you what is going on in my head at the moment. im having a major freakout and keep thinking horrible things and i already feel pain, tingles and stuff in the area of where i will be operated on (gall bladder) one thought in particular that is bothering me is that with general anesthetic you arent actually numbed you are put to sleep and if the person does not d it rightt you could wake up during surgery and feel everything... just like what happened when i had the emergency cesarean. (epi and spinal failed to numb me completely and i felt them cut me and dig around inside until i screamed for them to stop) arrrgh. i cant sleep .
has anyone else had or have a similar fear and what can i do to ease my mind. i really dont want to have the suegery. (have to though)